What I Do During Break - June 2010

PPS is a good thing! Been watching so many wonderful stuff on it the past two weeks. So great I decided to rekindle my interest for PPS. Haha~

Fav anime at the mo is “天才宝宝” aka Aka-Chan To Boku and How to train your dragon 3d.
Speaking of "How To Train Your Dragon 3D", really regret no watching in its wonderful true Imax form while its in the theaters. The 3D effects looks damn cool~ Esp the beg where the waves looks like it will splash into your face and the end where Toothless was flying through the rocks.

This time I am going to watch Despicable Me no matter what. If nobody's watching with me I will drag my family along. Bwahahaha~

Friendship Trauma

I guessed I am not good in making and maintaining friendships. To be frank, I always felt that its a miracle I have ANY friends at all. I am not a good friend and I always knew that. I do not give people presents mostly because I am brought up in a family whose tradition is doesn't include celebrating birthdays. Looking back, my primary school and secondary school do not celebrate birthdays as often as they do now.

Even so..... I am all the more grateful for all the friends that stayed with me till now. Eva, Shereen, Vanessa, LD....I know it wasn't easy. I am not the automatic sort. Neither am I the super fun and exciting type.

But then I do not think I deserve this. If you don't want to be friends. Just tell me so. We both know the relationship is strained. And its making me bad tempered cause its just so damn irritating to see us pretend.

Many a times I wanted to just tell you straight so that we can get it over and done with. But deep inside, I keep hoping that it will blow over and everything will be alright again.

I dunno if that day will ever comes. But right now, I don't how much more I can take.

So I am begging you....please end it?

Did I Do Wrong? Don't Think So~

Seriously. U never treat me right and now you expect me to be responsible for ur stuff?

How old do you think you are?

No thanks, I already have 2 immature brothers. Don't need you 2 to add to my headache.

And all those craps about you understanding us...pui~ Den you should have either saw it coming or at least understand why I back out, don't you?

And I told you 2 days before. You ample time to avoid panicking during the last min. When you said you respect my decision, I was relieved. I should have known. You respect nothing. Especially not me.

This US trip has already turned into a disaster. If you don't wanna travel w/me in the end, its fine. Good thing I have backup plans. Don't think you are the only 'friends' I have.

If you are angry, lemme tell you sth. You shouldn't be. CAUSE I AM F***ING FURIOUS RITE NOW! I SHOULD BE responsible? Now you look me yeah? Why don't you give me all your money then? I will be responsible and spend it all for you. I will try my hardest to spend it all so just give me your money. I promised I will complete this 'difficult' mission.

So much anger in my stomach. It's making me look fatter than usual. And I don't look very slim in the 1st place.

ARGGHHHH....F*** you!