My contact lenses break again! Second time already. At first I suspect its my a bit longer than my usual nails but soon dismissed that thought as the first time it breaks, my nails are super short (freshly bitten. Haha...).

Erm...maybe its the way I handle them. Too rough? But it seldom happens before with my normal blue-tinted contacts. Maybe the colored contacts are thinner than the normal ones. Gotta asked someone seemingly experienced. Like Ivy.

On a side note, still haven't fully recovered from Tioman. Its a fun and friendly place with lots of water fun. Insects trouble are not as bad as I though and I LOVE THE SUPER SOFT BED AND PILLOWS. So easier to sleep in! Just plonk onto the bed and less than one minute later you are in la la land. How awesome is that for a insomniac patient?

Now waiting for Lily to process the photos so I can blog about it in detail. Hope I still remember most of it by then! Stay tuned~

I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!

I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!! Insomnia again! ARGHHHHH~~

Its really gonna hurt putting in contact lenses later.

The Jitters Are Gone (1 Day To Tioman)

As the title states, the jitters are all gone. Replaced by what I supposed is regret ("Why oh why did I sign up for this in the 1st place?) and sian-ness (then I started thinking of how I can get out of this).

I'm so glad that I keep a diary of the pre-travel emotions that I am experiencing. Looking back, its pretty interesting! So many ups and downs. The mood swings really makes me wonder if I am getting a bit crazy. Then again I heard somewhere that everyone is a bit crazy in one way or another. So I guess I'm still doing fine. Right?

Maybe I can do one for post-travel and then let's do a comparison. Too bad I can't do the same for the during-travel. The fees for internet access is not really worth it. And although it usually goes very smoothly once I started hitting the keyboards, it takes a relatively long time for me to really get started.

So worried that something might go wrong tomorrow, the main concern being that whether Lily will appeared late. Think its gonna be another sleepless night, tonight.

Pre Travel Anxiety Syndrome (2 days to Tioman)

Is there such thing as Pre Travel Anxiety Syndrome? I studied Psychology for a short while so you are thinking I should know but I don't. Not at all. The module doesn't go that in depth. Its a Mass Comm course after all.

Did a search regarding it on Google and to my amazement there is REALLY SUCH THINGS!!!

Well not exactly Pre Travel Anxiety Syndrome (PTAS for short. Getting real tired of copying and pasting that long chain of medical terms that does not exist), but travel panic attacks.

The wonder of mankind. Oh, and you too, Mother Nature.

Is that I am feeling right now? Not exactly as I am not gonna change routes or anything and I ain't the least bit scared about accidents happening. I am a firm believer of 'what should come will come eventually' afterall. And I often boast about myself being a sadist for wanting to go where the danger is at. And then come back and bragged about how I am still alive and nothing bad happened to me during the trip. Call me crazy but a nicer way to put it is - 'adventurous'. Oh maybe cause I trusted my instinct for this kinda things. It's been in a coma state so far so I reckoned nothing bad is gonna happen. And so far it has served me well.

What I AM FEELING is mostly a mixture of whether the huge racksack of stuff I packed is enough for the trip as well as an excitement kind of jitters overwhelming me. Anticipation is the word. Can't really wait for the trip to really happen even though its only about two days to the trip. TWO DAYS SEEM SO FUCKING LONG.....

Maybe I should unpack my 'racksack' and repack it again. This time putting whatever that it ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY inside. Nothing more.

Insom-mania

Its back again.

I guess its quite normal to get insomnia everytime you feel stressed or mentally excited. But...

Two weeks in advance!

Must be REAL EXCITED if you asked me.

The usual stuff doesn't work and I went a bit outta my way to drink cough medicine. Its not drug abuse if you really must know. Its a try to see if it works and one time thingy. Anyway it doesn't work so I didn't drink it again. The taste isn't that fantastic anyway.

So now I'm here blogging, surfing the web and playing games. At the same time. Really got so used to having to multi-task that I felt uneasy if I don't do it. Guess that might contribute to why I get insomnia every so often - my brain still wanna multi-task in sleep mode. Seriously can't you go to REM stage 1st? We can talk about multi-tasking like...10am in the morning!

This is so screwed up. If I continue like this, all I am gonna do at Tioman is to catch up on my REM rebounds.

Hate you brain. You are a lousy brain for not being able to function properly.

Jitters!

Its like a bit more than one week to my Tioman trip and I gotta say...I CAN'T WAIT!

Well...partly bcoz I'm like so free at home so I'm like getting real bored and stuff.

Ultimate aim for the trip: Takes lotsa nice nice pictures so that I can make my friends jealous.

Side but very important and die die must do aim: Have at least one of those gigantic, totally not guilt-free, fattening Ramly burgers on paya beach.

Photo taken from my favorite nice haunts w/o her permission. Sorry~

Maybe I should pack my bag already. A week and two days doesn't really seems like really long.

Frankly I don't really know what to expect for the trip except lotsa sandy white beaches and clear blue/green water. Gee~ I wonder if 300RM is enuff for everything...I'm planning snorkeling as well (if my *ahem2 didn't arrive coincidentally). I'm gonna have some fun!

I'm really having insomnia these days. And no..its not bcoz of the 'overwhelming expectations' for the Tioman trip. The 'overwhelming-ness' only starts today, like just now. But the insomnia has been really haunting me for days. Lack of exercise maybe? I really gotta try making myself really tired before I sleep these days. Don't wanna hop onto the Tioman island and 'impress' the tourists and locals with my magnificent panda eyes.

Btw I just changed my desktop wallpaper to reflect my current mood:

Then again..I'm thinking this will be a better one: